The last week or so has felt more or less like I'm in my very own version of a classic nursery rhyme. You know the one, with the little old woman and the little old man. The little ol' pig, little ol' bird, the cow, and horse. Anywho, they're all chasing this Gingerbread Man. The little old woman is hungry and has a craving for a sweet treat. She gets about halfway through the process of making this dream come true, and off he goes. Running Away!
My modern twist to this classic tale goes slightly different.
"Run, run, run, as fast as you can! You can't catch me, I'm......life." Ergh, not the fairy tale character I was expecting to chase. And yet, here I am. 4 weeks left in my semester, halfway through this whole school process. I'm well on my way to making my dreams come true, and yet.....I'm running. \
Gotta keep those grades up, Lord knows the panic that'll ensue if I get a B. Gotta get these projects done. Gotta get my application done for next semester. Gotta make sure I'm still on the right track. And there's work, and there's personal projects, and then there's.....wait? Where'd it go? ugh....gotta start chasing it again.
It keeps getting away from me!
I'm tired. I'm really tired.
I have got to get off the defense. I am playing defense in my own life. Not ok. That was this little old woman's whole problem. Who I really need to take lessons from is the sly and hungry fox.
Then the gingerbread man reached a wide river, but he didn't know how to swim. A sly and hungry fox saw the gingerbread man and said, "Jump on my tail, and I'll take you across the river!"
The gingerbread man thought to himself, "I'll be safe on his tail." So he jumped on the fox's tail and they started across the river.
Halfway across the river, the fox barked, "You're too heavy for my tail, jump on my back." So the gingerbread man jumped on the fox's back.
Soon, the fox said, "You're too heavy for my back, jump onto my nose." So the gingerbread man jumped on the fox's nose.
As soon as they reached the riverbank, the fox flipped the gingerbread man into the air, snapped his mouth shut, and ate the gingerbread man.
And that was the end of the gingerbread man .
So that's the plan. I'm gonna trick life into jumping on my back. I'm getting on the offense of this situation. And I'm going to win, because, well, that's the only choice I'm giving myself.
....Was that the strangest blog post of all time? Further proof that my brain is tired....the finals week delusions are having an early onset this semester.....
Ah!! "I'm gonna tick life into jumping on my back" - my favorite line. And the best part about this metaphor is the fact that life is a delicious, gingerbread cookie! No matter how much you feel like your running, never forget how delicious life can be. :)
ReplyDeleteAt this point we're all just trying not to drown. Any day that you wake up again? I call it a win! You're going to be just fine girl. I know it. Only because I'm a semester or two ahead of you and can look back on it all. If I could go back and tell myself one thing though? It would be not to stress about grades. A's. B's. Perfect transcripts are freaky. Life and juggling and embracing imperfections along with all of the pristine perfect things...THAT is winning.
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